Sidenotes

A song, I have no idea the name of it, came on the radio on my way to work this morning. I have heard it numerous times. Yet, today it seemed to have new meaning.

We are given a chance to wash ourselves clean. We just have to be humble and confess those things and God will forgive. Some things you think, "I didn't do anything wrong." Guess what, most the time if you have to say that it is probably true.

This whole thing with my siblings has got to come to a close. Maybe this was God's way of saying you are a twin for a reason.

Sidenote
       * A girl called in requesting they play a song for her twins birthday. They said oh so it is your birthday too. The girl said, "Yeah I guess it is." She then shared how they NEVER spend their birthday apart. My twin and I - well we have pretty much done so since we turned 21. Call it a lack of same interests, friends, or simply too busy... either way we haven't spent it together.

I miss her. I  miss our conversations. I miss the occasional text to just see what is going on. I really truly miss being the twins we were.

Maybe God wants me to be humble and let go. I need to be honest and just have a conversation with her, just let God guide it. I pray he gives me the courage to do so. I pray I can let go of the you said, she said mentality I have. I pray I can let go of the jealous, the fear, the anger, and the loneliness I have.