The Unexpected

This week has been completely unexpected. Nothing was as planned and yet everything was amazing.

My brother came over this week and spent about 6 hours just talking with me. I miss him. We have so much in common yet are so different. I truly hope he knows how special he is to me and how amazing he truly is.

Some of the conversation brought us both to tears. I learned some things that shook my world and made my heart melt for him. I know how hard it is to grow up in a daze. I pray he is able to overcome those things people say and use those things to better himself. I know how it can be to not know who you are, or who you want to be. Living up to others thoughts only brings you down. I know. I was there.

Rumors, gossip, thoughts, delusions, etc. can all have negative effects on people. It is the ability to overcome and use those things that create a positive. So whether you hear you are a slut, a no-good loser, or even just worthless it is YOUR choice to say, "No!" Moving from those ideals can create a person so many admire.

I came from the ideals that I was easy (a HUGE misconception), rude, party girl and used those wrong/negative ideals to become someone who I can say I am proud of. :) It is possible. Use forgiveness... that was probably the biggest aid in creating who I am.

Another event was last night... I ran into two old teachers... when asked what I do I was almost shamed. An accountant is not where I thought I would be. I wanted to say - I am a blogger who is working on a website that will help women and men overcome the struggles of abuse, rape, and the ugly. Instead I simply stated an accountant - and I am married now...

I know I should be happy with those two things but it felt like a cop out of life. I failed. - WRONG! I am succeeding - I am becoming the person GOD and MYSELF want me to be! Be happy with who you are and others will see the light in you!



All in all - love yourself and love others the way you want to be loved!