Life Moments

*I started this a month ago - I am not going to edit it... so read away readers!

Stop and look at your life. Where are you, what are you doing, and who is in your life. No one knows what will take place within a year yet, we always seem to say - "nothing has changed." I am going to break that rule.

My life within this past year has changed in so many ways. Everything, I would have to say, got better.

This weekend I spoke with a wonderful woman about faith, changes, and love. As we sat there I thought of how I married Tim, how we were both able to witness a beautiful birth, how we both have grown so much in the faith and in one another. Then I thought of my beautiful friends. The Hardt sisters, and little Owen.

Sometimes you don't realize how important people are to you until someone helps aid in that.

this woman was that aid. I knew how much I loved them and how no matter what we would be friends, but I didn't realize why.

My wedding drama is long enough to fill 50 blogs, but short story (which I wrote about here) is we moved the date and I was ticked. Months went by and I was told how if the date hadn't been moved I would not have experienced the birth of Owen.

I would not say that it was ironic. I would say it was God taking part in my life - yet again - and guiding me to where he wanted me to be.

As I talked with this woman about that story she said that God is amazing and it was his plan we just have to be patient. I then let my mind wonder. She began to ask about my pregnancy and what the plan was there.

I told her no matter what I want a home birth, but I am willing to do the midwife thing at the hospital if it made my husband more at ease. AS I spoke those words my heart skipped a beat. I truly want to have this baby at home. I told her that I have warned my husband that if God wants this baby to come at home it will arrive at home. Luckily my husband is amazing and when I told him that he said, "I know."

As the words flow from our mouths, if you take a second, you can hear what the heart says and feels. I prayed in that instant that God would allow the path he wants me on during this pregnancy would be his desire and not my own.

Sunday came around and I received two prayers about my pregnancy and my friendship with the Hardt sisters. I was in tears for those simple thoughts I had earlier that weekend. Then I received a prophecy and the number one thing that stood out was that God would have those come to me in my time of need, that I should not worry about it. (all paraphrased) But how awesome is it that God heard my heart and answered. He will send those to me when they are needed and I am not going to question why. Those answers will come later. God is truly amazing.