The older I get I seem to get a clearer idea of just what it means to me. If ever I were to be cornered and asked what it means I believe I could answer.
This answer would be based on my life experiences and my relationship with God. It wouldn't be what someone told me or what I "should" believe. It is 100% based on me and God.
Faith based healing is something most are so against it is easy to close ones ears prior to even getting an explanation after they have asked what it means.
I feel that with this pregnancy it has gotten somewhat harder for people to understand where my faith lies. So, let me start with this.
1. I want a natural birth
2. I want my baby born at home
3. I don't want the use of medication to be anywhere near my child during this process.
Now, a little background.
I grew up in a church where going to the doctor was.... well... rare. Now, did it mean if you went you were bound to hell? No... but if you had faith and you believed God has the power to heal - then let him.
I grew up with NO vaccinations (GASP) and never went to the doctors office. Sick, ear problems, etc. I never went. Honestly I don't like the hospital... it rubs me weird (this could be because the only time I ever went in one was when someone was dying). Anyway, this leads me to my mother. My mother has the faith to move mountains. She would pray for me and it seemed like instantly I was cured of whatever ailed me.
So, that is how I grew up.
I was witness to this faith based healing and I saw it work. Not only on myself but on numerous people who at times were told they weren't going to make it. In the end, I have this faith. I feel God has the power to cure, to heal, to guide without any other help. Just simply prayer, faith, and patience.
Now on to current time. I am pregnant. I married a man who was not raised the way I was. I decided to make sure we both got a little of what we wanted I would look into a midwife based at a hospital. Luckily the one we chose has been great. Never a pressure on taking medication or anything. Until I took the glucose screening and 3 hour test.
Then it was a flurry of - hurry, we need to see you asap and get you taken care of. Then over a week passes and I hear from the clinic saying they scheduled me to see the dietician. Cool... let's get a good diet plan set up. Mine seems to suck.
Then this is what I hear - "Your appointment is scheduled for October."
WHAT? By that point my little girl will be born and almost 2 months old. I thought gestational diabetes was to be treated during pregnancy. The nurses response - I thought it was odd too, maybe it isn't that important based on your levels.
Seriously? I wanted to crawl through the phone and hit her. Why have they panicked me to the point I feel sick and feel as though my baby will die if I don't get this taken care of?
Anyways, I hung up the phone a little upset, but at the same time relieved. I had received a prophecy saying that if I would lean on my faith my baby and I would be delivered safely. I felt like this was a "sign" that pointed me to follow that faith based healing and to rely on him to guide this pregnancy.
So - I posted to FB about how odd it was for them to schedule the date for Oct. and that I was in turn going to follow God from here on out.
DEBATE started. This is my response. This is where I - THE MOMMA OF BABY JACOBSON - is coming from.
I do not feel that in not going to this dietitian (in Oct) will hurt my baby or myself in anyway. I feel that if I monitor how I feel, what I eat, and my exercise...along with prayer, my daughter will come into this world healthy and alive.
I do not feel I am putting my life or hers in danger by following through on something I am 100% an example of. I do not feel as though by not taking medication I am hurting my chances of a healthy baby. I do not feel as though by stating I am going to take the "prayer" method I am a bad parent.
In turn, I feel as though I am being an example of what God wants of me. I am putting my baby in the hands of the most powerful. I am turning to him to guide me. It is up to my husband and I to choose which path we go.
Will we still go to our appointments at the clinic? Yes... Will I take medications? No. Will this baby come at home? That is 100% up to God and his plans.
I do hope those reading this can understand what faith can do, what prayer can do, and what it means to someone who is trusting in the almighty to deliver them.
Feel free to comment. To give your opinion. I am strong enough to take all sides and openly digest them. But, I will not allow anyone but God to change my heart.
Many prayers to all, many blessings to all.
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