Missing

I feel like something is missing and all I can think of is the prophecy I received in Tahoka. I feel like I am falling behind somehow. There are so many things going on around me that I feel as though I have let go of the greatest gift. My faith.

Maybe it is time I make a trip to my second home?! Maybe it is time to do another post that just spits it all out and then I will feel that completeness I am lacking.

My mom and I were talking Sunday and it was as though I understood her a little more just by talking about her teaching job. She is so stressed it is causing her to become depressed. There seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. She tries so hard to get ahead and teach these children and it seems to fall on deaf ears.

It is so hard to work to your best ability and then be squished by others. It is hard at times to feel like you are running in circles and never getting ahead. My coworker was stuck like this. Finally we had a break through and she realized I can not read minds and all she had to ever do was ask for help. A week later she is able to have Friday off.

Maybe I need that sort of help. Just to ask for the help.

Random side note:

Brooke sent me a homemade card in the mail and it brought me to tears. Just the day before I had been feeling down on myself. You know, the do I have friends, do I have TRUE friends, do they love me the way I love them. Then hello. God sure does answer our deepest desires.

I am blessed to have the friends I have. Each one of them are implanted so deeply in my heart and without them and their love and support I would be a mess. Those random texts, phone calls, and messages all mean so much to me. I pray that I give them that sense of love I was given by Brooke.