Smiles!!!

I know I post a lot about friends, family, animals, etc. There is a reason. Each one impacts me in a way that I feel could motivate or impact you as the reader.

Today my thoughts are on the closeness I have with those who are around me and my ability to smile even when sometimes I don't want to.

My coworker told me she was raised to not smile unless she has something to smile about. I said, Well isn't there always something to smile about?"... her response was, "no."

This took me by surprise. No matter where you are or what you are doing there is something you can think, read, or imagine that would bring a smile to your face. It also saddened me. To live life thinking you aren't allowed to smile unless something makes you... so sad. I prayed for her to find her smile.

So here...Smile -

Next, those close to me know how much they mean to me. I, at times, find myself smiling at the simple fact I have friends and at the memories we have had with one another. To have friends is a simple blessing we should all cherish. I pray they all know how much I love them and would be lost with out them....

So - 2 simple rules. 1. Smile 2. Tell your friends you love them.

Moments

I honestly have no idea what to blog about. I have so many emotions in me that I can't figure out which is most important.

This morning I woke thinking about those, "Thank you God!" moments. You know those when you least expect his help and wam there he is.

Wednesday night we went to roller skate with my mom for her Student Council fundraiser. I can tell you I did not want to go. I suck at skating and pretty much thought well I will spectate. Which I did.

Anyway, I am thankful I was there. My mother ended up falling (bad) and ended up going to the hospital to make sure she didn't crack any ribs. I know if I would have been at home I would not have seen it happen, been there for her, or to make sure she was okay.

*She is okay, only bruised up badly. She is to take it easy for a week.

Then, when I left the hospital I was trying to put my cruise control on and it wouldn't go. Therefore I started to slow down. By the time I got it to work I looked up and there was a coyote in the middle of the road. I am so thankful God had a hand in that. Had I got the cruise control to work I would have either hit the animal or I would have crashed trying to avoid it.

You see it is those small things. We have two options. 1. think it was mere coincidence 2. thank God for protecting us.

I know in my life there are many moments where I get frustrated at the slow drivers, I get upset my plans change, or I feel like someone is against me. Now I know those are the moments when I am being protected by the slow drivers, I needed to be somewhere else, and those altercations are there to help guide me in the right direction.

God is so good to us if only we could see each event, moment, and thought is arranged by him for a reason.

Missing

I feel like something is missing and all I can think of is the prophecy I received in Tahoka. I feel like I am falling behind somehow. There are so many things going on around me that I feel as though I have let go of the greatest gift. My faith.

Maybe it is time I make a trip to my second home?! Maybe it is time to do another post that just spits it all out and then I will feel that completeness I am lacking.

My mom and I were talking Sunday and it was as though I understood her a little more just by talking about her teaching job. She is so stressed it is causing her to become depressed. There seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. She tries so hard to get ahead and teach these children and it seems to fall on deaf ears.

It is so hard to work to your best ability and then be squished by others. It is hard at times to feel like you are running in circles and never getting ahead. My coworker was stuck like this. Finally we had a break through and she realized I can not read minds and all she had to ever do was ask for help. A week later she is able to have Friday off.

Maybe I need that sort of help. Just to ask for the help.

Random side note:

Brooke sent me a homemade card in the mail and it brought me to tears. Just the day before I had been feeling down on myself. You know, the do I have friends, do I have TRUE friends, do they love me the way I love them. Then hello. God sure does answer our deepest desires.

I am blessed to have the friends I have. Each one of them are implanted so deeply in my heart and without them and their love and support I would be a mess. Those random texts, phone calls, and messages all mean so much to me. I pray that I give them that sense of love I was given by Brooke.

They Don't Make em Like That

This song hit home today.

It took my mind to my grandma and how she told Tim, "Don't ever stop holding her hand." Later she informed me my grandpa used to take her hand all the time and it is those moments you miss more than anything. The small stuff as people like to call it.

The verse about "a love like that"; is something I strive for. A love for someone so pure that once they are gone you don't want to replace them. That is what my grandma feels for my grandpa. I feel this is something only few are special enough to feel and be a part of. I think my twin was able to get a glimpse of this as well. That pure, unadulterated love... the love you never want to forget.

I understand this emotion with my husband. I understand how truly blessed I am to have him. Sometimes I may not share with him how much he means to me. I even fail to share with others. Maybe it is because this is something I keep secret. I keep it close to my heart because I fear when I speak about it maybe it steals a bit of the pureness. It doesn't. If anything it adds to it. Maybe I should share with others. I think we should be able to share our love stories.

My mom and dad have this love as well. Granted there are times in their relationship they want to probably murder one another, but I know they could never replace one another. I know that without one another they would be lost. What a blessing to have someone you feel that for.

So - seeing as how it is Valentine's this Thursday. Share your love story. Cast away the feeling of someone may judge it, or compare it. Who cares. It is your love. Not theirs.

Perspectives

There are times when we let our emotions get the best of us. It is as though we lose all control of what we feel and we begin to just spew random words.

I fear this has come to pass with me. My emotions got me. They won.

Everything Sunday morning was what I call "picture perfect" then it all went down hill so fast. Yet, in a way it completely changed my thought on a lot of things I assumed were the way I saw them.

Point is, try to see things from all perspectives.