The Ability of Following Through

My mother gave me a call this morning. She told me about a dream she had.

I was four years old and we were at the Evan's house cleaning before they got home. Then we were about to leave and noticed the mirror was dirty. Then it started to storm and my 4 yr old self told her, I didn't want to leave because it was scary. Then she said, "It's okay we will be safe." Then I told her, "No, this is a safe place."

Then she continued to tell me about her and being an example. My mom is sometimes fearful she has failed to raise me right in the faith. She has no idea the example she has been to me. It is her that makes me want to have my child at home, it is her who makes me want to go to church, it is her who makes me pray daily, it is her stories that make me want to be a better person.

I remember her telling me once that when she was 24 she decided to read the Bible all the way through. She sat outside and tears streamed down her face as she read it. I have always wanted to do this. I remember on my 25th birthday thinking I failed because I had yet to open it.

The thing that gets me the most is she said to stay strong in the faith. If I want to have my baby at home then follow through. She told me I was already stronger than her since I have been able to bring Tim to church. That since I was given dreams I am stronger. She told me to be the example. Be the strong one who follows the word. To not cave when the pressures come. Then she told me if I really wanted to be a midwife I would have to be strong.

She said my dad told her to have a glass of wine. She said when she would get sick before she used to get a glass and pray over it and then she would get better. She said she had forgotten about that. She didn't want to forget anymore.

Here is the kicker - This morning I prayed to God to allow me the answer to know what to do in this time. I want him to guide me in this process. I want him to be there every step of the way. I want him to be what leads Tim and I.

My mother is still very faithful. Although she may not know, she was given the dream by God and followed through on what he gave her. She shared that with me and I have my answer to my prayer I shared with God this morning.

God is so good.