As a woman living just for herself I never truly took thought to death. I knew it would come and that was all that there was to it. I was living simply to live and death would change nothing.
As a mother death terrifies me. Not only for myself but for my daughter. She has pushed me to believe so much more in God and to have faith.
As we traveled to and from Tennessee this past week I caught myself praying for God to keep us safe on the highways. Last night we hit fog that was so dense we could barely see the car in front of us. As I sat, in the back, with my daughter and Tim drove I continued to think oh, God protect my family. Protect us from the dangers we could possibly hit. I then had a thought. What if I died?
Have you ever truly thought on that question? I sure did. I became terrified that 1. I have not lived fully for my God. 2. My daughter would be left with no mother. Nothing, nothing can prepare you for death. You can live under the fear of it, or you can change your life because of the fear.
Last night I chose to change. I want to live for God, for my daughter, for my husband. I want people to look at me and see the light within me. I want to live doing what God has for me. I don't want to be scared to change my career, my attitude, or my way of life. I have to thank God for the things he has done in my life this past year. He has done so much my whole life; but this past year has left me speechless.
So, take a moment and thank God for the blessings he has given. Take a moment and truly look at your life and ask yourself, "What if I were to die?"
